what is real?

how do i know that today will be any better? really i settle here only to be uprooted everytime it gets too clear that i might have found my spot here. i am not sure which person i am anymore. i am so many people at once i am a little shapwshifting bird who has her wings cliped. i suppose i will just stay as i am in hopes that some day a stranger will take pity on me and let me out of these chains. for on that day i wll know who and what i am b/c he will choose for me. doesn't that sound nice? no more having it choose? just being as i ma ment to. i will never have people laugh or judge me again and even if they try to i will just luagh, i will not care anymore because he will be there and nothing else will matter